She Smiled Away But She Wasn't Okay....But Smiled Away Because She Could

  Pain , seizures, a fall, Botox because of Dystonia and somehow there's a happy place?

 Smiling, laughing why???

I quite frankly don't know.

A car ride? No.

I like the doctor..... and he knows who Robert Liston was.

That's cooler than cool.

Yes, perhaps that's a lot of it.

My cousins did visit me before they left.

Plenty of reasons to smile really.

And when I finally came home gifts from friends were waiting in the mail.

Seriously there are things that lessen pain, and joy is something intoxicating.

How Mommy Found Me A Compassionate Doctor Who Would Hear My Cry...

 Neruologists can be a very frightening bunch and even though some just said I was too much for them to take on, it was not helpful and things only got worse....but then it actually finally got to the point that some mean and rude doctors knew that I wasn't a fake...I have been called that before.
 I believe that they just didn't know how to treat a case as mine so they probably decided to just let things go even if taking no action was worse.
So where did my mother find this most compassionate person who works hard and cares for his patients?? The good old phone book.

This is not to say that I have not found great men who treated me kindly at hospital and a Muslim man granted me great kindness and mercy before, I cannot judge a man because of religion for we all are sinners and all have bad days... I just wanted the grown up world to be the way my mind thought it would be and it leaves me disturbed... But that's how sin is.
I still have much to learn and I am not saying that I thought Christians were better than anyone else is in their own human ways. I just guess I truly am stupid to of ever thought people were kinder to each other.