I'm just frankly confused about myself.
I mean I used to have pretend cookouts for my dolls and Teddy's and it was a easy thing to do but it's not anymore.
I had to feel around to get everything together.
I had to guess if that pretend light was on or not.
Mostly I wanted to get a picture of my cookouts for a friend but.... I'm in the dark mostly.
Mostly........... but less so than one would think because I know more or less where I put everything last time and my Teddy lives in my bed and the doll, Sadie Grace she was with some doll friends in the corner where I put her last.
I'm having a more difficult time than people think.
They think I'm really adjusted but what's adjusted????
I don't like not being able to see.
I manage okay.
There is one thing that no longer bothers me, I do indeed have a braille Bible and I can easily read it whenever I want.
I used to be confused as to why I couldn't see my Bible any more...I don't know why but I immediately thought perhaps God was mad at me.
Braille is different than reading you know, it's more beautiful it's colorful... it's literally like a drug. I haven't heard about anyone else experiencing such a thing..... sometimes I read it so much my fingers callus.
Is this bad?
Is this my way of trying to find more light?
I am desperately confused about myself.
Rather strange things to go through I suppose?
